where I am ...where I am going. I have kind of abandoned this blog, haven't I? I really didn't mean to. I have spent 2010 so far on a roller coaster of emotion. No, nothing big has happened in my life. No real crisis of any kind.
I have this habit - a lifelong habit - that I must kick. It's sucking all the color and flavor out of me. I fixate on things - not literal objects, but situations. I spend hours and hours trying to read the tea leaves and then more hours brewing pots and pots of tea until the leaves say what I want them to.
I guess it boils down to a couple of core issues:
1. I fear that I will drop the ball...that all the sign I should do something are right there in front of me and I will, from sheer stupidity, miss them and wreck my Whole Life.
2. A lack of faith.
I am spinning my wheels creatively because I cannot focus on art when I am mentally writing a script for a Lifetime movie based on an inconsequential exchange with a stranger at WalMart.
This is just a season I must endure. I know it will pass. I must be patient with myself and ride this out.
Until then...
3 comments:
great insight here...somewhat reassuring to know that even book authors & professional artists spin their wheels too, just like the rest of us! hope you will be continuing the blog updates...and wow, hope the ad "comments" drop off...
Dianne
Well I have been busy copying you. Inspired by your article in Issue 9 of CPS, I made some purses as favors for a bridal shower. I'd only made two books before, but the bug bit me and I made 28. I couldn't stop, I still want to make more. Had to slap myself in Michael's yesterday so as not to use the coupon to buy more cardstock. You made 365 books in a year, I became so obsessed I made 28 in a weekend. Pictues will be posted on my blog June 5th.
Thanks for the inspiration.
Susan
http://studioadventures-susan.blogspot.com/
wow...i could have written this post!!! I spin my wheels too and often fixate on what is wrong rather than what is right. Good for you for being this self-aware.....i know this is an old post so i'm hoping things are going well for you.
I noticed that you have some adorable fabric dolls in the Quilting arts gift mag so wanted to drop by and say hi!
love, violette
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